Gisborne . . .

August 25, 2010

The flames in Abbess Beatrice’s room had died down and I began to chill.  Compline had still not ended and so I took a poker and stirred the embers, then placed two logs of applewood on the top, the room filling with a pleasant scent as I sat again to continue my thoughts.  I glanced around the sparsely furnished chamber.  Coffers and seats were furnished with elegantly spare cushions whose simple embroidery created a monastic comfort . . . perhaps a contradiction in terms.  A small prie-dieu hugged a wall where a crucifix frowned from the wall above and a carved wooden statue of the Virgin occupied a corner.  An oak table held a tray of wine and goblets but I forbore to pour one as it would be an abuse of the Reverend Mother’s hospitality.

I thought about her, Beatrice, champion of Sir Guy of Gisborne, and suddenly there was an illumination as bright as the flames in the hearth.  She had been lean with the truths she had told me.  Expeditious, she said.  But what about the rest?  She knew why Guy had changed.  Of course she did.  But she chose not to tell me because she would not have me hate him again.  Heavens, I thought, how does the woman reconcile herself with her God, Bride of Christ that she is?

And that was the moment when I remembered Guy in Tours, saying in a voice overlaid with bitterness: ‘Status is power.’

Beatrice glided into the room moments later, a picture of serenity.  ‘My child,’ she said as I kissed her ring, ‘I did not expect you this night.’

‘I am caught out, Reverend Mother.  Prince John seeks to find me and Guy has remembered.’  If she noticed I said Guy rather than Sir Guy or Gisborne, she made no comment and listened while I told her of the unfolding of truths at Locksley Manor.

‘I can see you must go far from Prince John and Vasey, although I cannot pretend to understand completely.  Although . . .’ she poured us both a wine but chose not to finish the sentence.  ‘Guy would not denounce you, Ysabel.  That is not the man he is, and if I read into what you told me yesterday, I would say there is a deep relationship between you that he will remember and will want to protect.’

Oh Beatrice, if only you knew. ‘You talk about the man he is now, Reverend Mother.  Now he might be Robin Hood or the Nightwatchman but what if his bitterness towards me overrides that?’

‘And why should it?’

I closed my eyes and all I could see were his arms around me, holding me close, and me allowing him.

His intensity beat like a drum and I could even smell the leather and the crisp fragrance of lemons that he wore with masculine ease.  ‘Mother, my story will take hours and every minute I take, I lose my advantage.  Can’t you see?’

‘I do, but I have a much safer plan.  We shall keep the mare here and tell Sir Guy you left it with us and departed with a small group of pilgrims who travel southeast to London and thence to Compostella.  That you plan to leave England and return to Aquitaine and they will see you as close to Montrachet as possible.’

Aquitaine! I looked up from studying my clenched hands.  If anything might convince Guy . . .

‘I shall tell him you seek sanctuary with your cousins and that you thank him for his employ and the use of the mare.’

‘But he will know if a group of pilgrims have left Nottingham.’

‘Then it is as well that they do.  As well that a young woman with long brown hair and . . . well, that a young woman travels with them.’

‘But I do not.’

‘Ah,’ she tapped the side of her nose.  ‘But another does.  It is all that matters.’

‘And how shall I escape west?’

‘Tomorrow one of our Sisters travels to Gainsborough Abbey to deliver herbs and medicaments to the Infirmarian.  She is travelling with two merchants and their wives and a priest.  But instead of one Sister there shall be two.  As there should always be but we could not afford to send more than one at this time.  You shall be our extra Sister.  Sister Claire.  From Gainsborough it is only twenty leagues to the Welsh border.  By the end of the week, you shall be in Wales.’

I jumped up and hugged her and then stepped away, my cheeks flaming with the impropriety.  ‘Oh Mother Beatrice, I apologise.  How remiss . . .’

‘Rubbish.  I love a good hug and miss it in here where there is such a Godly code.  And there is a sin I shall have to confess – covetousness.  Ah well, let she who is without sin cast the first stone.  Now we have all night, you shall tell me the rest of yours and Guy’s story and we shall not pause for any of the devotions.  I am otherwise occupied this night.’

What a wonderful woman.  She rubbed her hands together and poured us a wine and I could not help remembering my mother, Alais, when she visited Montrachet and wanted nothing better than to sit on the end of my bed, wrapped in furs as we chatted all night about my various male escorts.